I'm good enough!

I have been doing a little soul searching this week.  I had plans to go see my ex this weekend, to give his little girl her birthday present. However the morning I was suppose to go down there, we had a snowstorm.  It upset me to think I was not going to get to see the girls and give the one girl her birthday present.  Well, things work out in the end and due to the weather, my ex did not work the next day and got to keep his girls an extra day.  So, Monday I went down there and I stayed the day.  I cuddled with all of them. We watched movies, played with all of her birthday presents and it really made my week.  What this day made me realize is that although things didn't work out between us, I learned a lot.  The relationship with him taught me that I have soo much love to give, but it is also need to find someone capable of loving me back the same way.  I realized that I can love someone else's children like they are my own, but I also need someone who can love my son like he is their own.  I have been talking to some new people online.  I don't know that they are people I want to date, but they have helped me with figuring out some of my issues.  While my kid has issues, I realized that my ex never really tried with him. I took days off of work to watch his kids for him and  always put them first and he never returned even some of that to my son.  So, now I realize that while I am flawed, I am good enough to be someones love and that is what I want.  No settling, no putting my self last, none of the things I have done in the past.  I am going to concentrate on my needs and wants for a little while and figure out what it is that I am searching for.